crossroads

2 months ago i played with a dead viper,
and as they said, it's also dangerous, i didn't really care

i went even at very windy nights to swim in the lake,
even alone

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i got the message:
i can go back to holland, work in the office
peaceful life:
legal, well-payed, relative relaxed work, minimal homophobia
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at that night i took my towel and went on the beach with a beer
"the water was anxious"
i drank my beer, thought about stopping smoking
and turned around

there hissed something on the stones
i was more afraid than curious
i shrank