Nice day. Relatives visiting us. With one of my favorite aunts a little trip to meet one of my friends, a nice girl (the "ex"). Rambling in the town, ice-cream in the swelter, spa, stories, and THEN: I don't know, how it came into question, but I just remember that the nice , tender girl (wanting to bring the gospel, the good news about the love of God to nations) sais: I'm still a gay, because I don't want hard enough to change!
I almost forgot, how it was... What I felt, as I had all the time guilt, I hated myself and the world, everything was so dark - except an imagined, constructed little world and the others, who share the same ideas. I almost forgot, what I felt as I tried to commit suicide, as my self was devided to a good and an evil part, and also the satisfaction of natural desires was from the Father of Darkness.
I can be grateful to our Father and the Creator of this whole world, also of my body and soul, for remembering me, that He "have brought me out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage." (Exodus 20,2). And if I was earlier devoted to spread the gospel, to help others, to pray - the fact, that others in the name of their hating God ban me, it mustn't hold me back to keep praying and helping.
links: ex-gay survivals / ex-ex gays
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roze zaterdag, Bergen op Zoom
I had to eschew from crying, as the rainbowflag ascended in the big church...
the minister blessed the pink gathering,the mayor read to the greeting of the queen,
who could this year not be present,
and we sang about the diversity of love
(see pictures in the background!)
The whole commerce took aim at the gays.
Rose Funken - Köln
One of the most moving things was: that the simply civils demonstrated also their support :-)
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