Amsterdam is sooo hot!

A city with XXX on its flag and blazon. With 2 m long guys, a lot of rainbow-flags and this phallic pales everywhere. And... (I lived until now in the country, I didn'n need these) the thick chains to close the bicycles... Their consistence (always covered, mostly with a coarse kind of textil) is so... so... as that of a half stiff... you know.
HOT!

Or just I am sexually frustrated? :-O

In Hungarian we have an idiom:
"Éhes disznó makkal álmodik."
"The hungry pig dreams about acorn."
Because in Hungarian this word, "acorn" means also cockshead, we use it also so:
"The hungry cockhead/acorn dreams pig(gish things)." :-D

hetero-control

The Bible contains 6 admonishments to homosexuals and 362 admonishments to heterosexuals. This does not mean that God doesn't like heterosexuals, it just means they need more supervision.
(Lynn Lavner)

was suche ich???

Manchmal verlassen die Jungs auf GayRomeo oder gay.nl ihre Geduld, und fragen, was ich eigentlich dort suche.
Einmal habe ich so geantwortet:

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schrille Veränderung - und stille Kontinuität
Unruhe und Ruhe
Streben nach etwas, was vielleicht nicht existiert - und Beruhigung darin, was immer schon da war.

- :-D grosse Wörter :-D -
immer wieder werde ich darüber gefragt, aber ehrlich gesagt weiss ich nicht, ob ich es weiss

ich will natürlich Sex, aber nicht um jeden Preis
ich will Freunde, aber von meinen Hetero-Freunden will ich manchmal auch mehr
naja, ich will Partnerschaft, aber ich kenne nur die Gefühle: 1) jemanden unverwidert zu lieben und 2) Liebe nicht verwidern zu können

aber ganz burnout bin ich nicht - ich fühle noch/schon den FUNKEN der Hoffnung :-)

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und die Antwort war nur: "also kein sexdate?"

The real gay exodus!

Nice day. Relatives visiting us. With one of my favorite aunts a little trip to meet one of my friends, a nice girl (the "ex"). Rambling in the town, ice-cream in the swelter, spa, stories, and THEN: I don't know, how it came into question, but I just remember that the nice , tender girl (wanting to bring the gospel, the good news about the love of God to nations) sais: I'm still a gay, because I don't want hard enough to change!

I almost forgot, how it was... What I felt, as I had all the time guilt, I hated myself and the world, everything was so dark - except an imagined, constructed little world and the others, who share the same ideas. I almost forgot, what I felt as I tried to commit suicide, as my self was devided to a good and an evil part, and also the satisfaction of natural desires was from the Father of Darkness.

I can be grateful to our Father and the Creator of this whole world, also of my body and soul, for remembering me, that He "have brought me out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage." (Exodus 20,2). And if I was earlier devoted to spread the gospel, to help others, to pray - the fact, that others in the name of their hating God ban me, it mustn't hold me back to keep praying and helping.

links: ex-gay survivals / ex-ex gays

Buzi-e vagy?

Sztereotípiákról, a "társadalmi kontroll"-ról stb.
CSÚNYA SZÖVEG!!!!!!!

szöveg

Szetey coming out - jeeee!!!!!!

Index cikk

roze zaterdag, Bergen op Zoom

I had to eschew from crying, as the rainbowflag ascended in the big church...

the minister blessed the pink gathering,
the mayor read to the greeting of the queen,
who could this year not be present,
and we sang about the diversity of love
(see pictures in the background!)

The whole commerce took aim at the gays.

Rose Funken - Köln

One of the most moving things was: that the simply civils demonstrated also their support :-)

searching for a cook!

I thought about... and...

I came to like things because of guys.

Judaism - XY.
Beer - YX.
Cigarette - XZ, ZX.

Perhaps I should search for a cook. I would not eat so much pizza from the freezer. :-D

Also wanted:
- bookworm
- somebody writing his thesis

yammi! :-P

gaykely

Egyszer Tata (Nagyapám), bár tán kissé pityókásan, de komolyra fordítva a szót, s ennek megfelelően E/3-ban beszélve magáról, megjegyezte (miután megtudakolta, hogy hogy állok ezzel meg azzal a lánnyal): "Tata pedig örülne, ha székely leányt vennél el."

Hát, felerészben még teljesíthetem a kévánságát :-)

És talán - a community szokásáról kialakult sztereotípiákkal ellentétben - kicsit nacionalista meleg is vagyok. Vagy csak így alakul. Valahogy a különböző "első" élményeim is Erdélyben, erdélyiekkel, vagy külföldön magyarokkal alakultak...

És még valami: a pornóban is megdobogtatja kicsi szívem, ha meghallom: hoppá, ezek a legények magyarul besz... izé... nyögnek :-o

inverted world

I was at the party with Mr. Gay Netherlands election.

There were some strange minutes:

1. By the rummaging at the entrance was a woman the searcher (sure lesbian...).
2. Once I looked at a boy and a girl in front of me. The embraced each other. I looked away as if they are doing some obscenity. - And just then I realised: we are in an inverted world :-D
3. The worlds "mucho" and "hetero" were very hard attached in my imagination and my phrasing, thanks to Flo & Gazsi I often used the expression "mucho hetero". But now I saw a whole blessed lot mucho homo's. :-O